What Am I Doing Here?

I've learned a lot in the last three months.

1.I really am a dork.
2.That's O.K. with me.

  In a way I'm still just getting started.  Now that I may have lured some of you in with my festive Holiday banner I hope I don't scare you.  Along with the fun stories I will be including some stories that I  never expected to be the one telling, but that every parent should probably hear.  We have dealt with some difficult things. Many people have dealt with way worse. But maybe someone will learn they're not alone and what your kids do is not always a reflection on you as a parent. I had to wait for mine to grow up before I knew that for sure. That is why I'm here.
 
When my oldest was little she was so easy that I could smugly think,

"this parenting stuff is a cinch, I must be really good at it. Gee, we should have more kids."

Then she turned 14 and gave us the biggest sucker punch of all time.  You see, I have been that mom with an "idyllic" life. And during that time at the back of my mind, so rare it was easily ignored, very tiny but just occasionally discernable was the thought, "This is too good. When is that anvil going to fall out of the sky."  Well it did. We have and continue to face challenges with bull headed daughters. The truth is I actually like us more now.

 I don't know why our story is what it is. I can only tell it and share my feelings about it. There are stories too close to my heart to take out, but whatever I share here is openly talked about by my family with people we know and nothing that the kids wouldn't share. ( And possibly have on their "Face/Space.") I do try to keep our identity hidden for the sake of privacy . If you happen to recognize us you either know us well enough to know the facts or you don't really know us and you should know the facts.
  Plus the kids writing teachers have always looked at me kind of strange. God knows what they are writing about me!

I Don't Wanna Wednesday

Much like my dishwasher being broken for the past week and not calling a repair person there are things I have not done on my blog cause I don't wanna. Or because.....

Why don't you have a .com?

"Well, I could have. We already have a host for our business web sites and doing it through blogger seems pretty easy. But I wasn't sure what I was going to do and for several years I have been avoiding learning how to do things on our sites because, well....  I don't really wanna. So it would take some explaining to my husband that I can get it for fun but not for earning a living." I'm still thinking about it and will probably continue to think about it somemore.

Why haven't you customized your page?

"Kind of the same reason as the last one and I haven't really had time to devote to that. I am interested in making a button but though I have some understanding of html and creating links, whenever I start looking into how to create  my own stuff I get the same feeling I do when I try to contemplate the universe. Like my brain is going to explode. I picked my template because I like green. So far it's working for me, I might manage to make it more original by the time I'm 80."

Why don't you use Adsense or do promotions?

" When I am here I am avoiding work. To me this constitutes work as it is something to keep track of. However I have not ruled it out indefinitely. It might be something I could use one day."

You like to read. Why don't you review books?

" Easy, I don't wanna read anything that I don't want to read". If I read something good I'll tell you about it.

Why don't you do recipes?

 "I always laugh when other Moms say their kids won't eat real food, they just want junk. The phrase "could we have some real food please?" is often heard coming from my childrens mouths. I am a terrible eater but made sure my kids were fed right. I do have a hand full of real meals that are very basic and nutritious but I am a whiz at frozen lasagna, box macaroni & cheese, and jar spaghetti. Once a week we have eat what you find night, that's my favorite. Kind of like a scavenger hunt where you see what everyone is having when they get to the table. And that's really it, we get to the table. We eat together at least 6 days a week most of the time. And we talk. A lot. We have awesome conversations, that is my gourmet.

Why don't you Facebook?

"It seems pointless as I will not be booking a face."

Why don't you Twitter?

"You really don't want me to get ahold of something like that."

Why don't you use  your/or a name?

"I don't use my name for privacy reasons. And as an example of how my mind works. I could use a pseudonym but for some reason I feel like I would be being untruthful. I could make something up but I don't want to pretend I'm Mary or Sue when I'm not. You know motpg is not a real name."

What do you want to do?

" Share". How great and how hard it can be to be a mom. So I wanna share my favorite song.  I tried to embed it but it didn't wanna, so here is a link. When you get there scroll it to On Up The Mountain. Though it's not what the song is about, with the exception of a couple lines the lyrics describe exactly how I feel about my life and my children."

If you wanna : )


http://www.jakobdylan.com/player.html




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25 New Years !

   I've been giving the kids a break from my blog for the holidays. I'll get back to them. A lot of people are talking about resolutions.  We don't really do anything special for New Years. The last time I rang in the New Year awake was about 5 years ago when my husband had kidney stones and I had to take him to the emergency room.
    I don't think forward at this time. This week of the year I think back on my relationship with my husband. I believe that was the last New Year I had a resolution. We met the day after Christmas in 1984 and that night he asked if I wanted to go camping for New Years Eve. You see, we kind of defy common sense for how to begin a meaningful and long term relationship, and the advice I would give my daughters.  We not only met in a night club, we fell in love at maybe not 1st sight but definitely first dance. To the Foreigner song   "I  Want To Know What Love Is " no less. Strangely enough we had lived in a relatively small town and went to the same high school but never met. It had to be a magic night because at the time all of my laundry was dirty and I was wearing a pink sweater with white cats all across the front except one black one (anyone remember those?)  that my parents bought me for Christmas and white ankle boots. Both of which he hated but talked to me any way. My friend wanted to leave early. He offered me a ride home. I said "that was fine but I really mean a ride straight home, don't try anything"  and I Meant It! The next night he called to see if I would go out and I said, "no",  "I was too tired because I stayed out late and had needed to go to work at 7 that morning," I still hadn't done my laundry either." But maybe the next night." 
  
   That's how I really caught him. Intrigue. He claims he considered never calling back but I know better.

The next night we did go out and have been together ever since. That New Years Eve of 84/85  we spent camping with his friends. It was a cold clear night and we had a bon fire. We slept in the back of his truck and he didn't try anything, I Mean It!

That was when I had the resolution that I was gonna keep this one!
Especially when I got home and saw how I looked that morning and he still stayed around.
   That's how he caught me.

When we woke up this morning I realized it was the 25th Anniversary of the 1st time we spent a whole night and woke up next to each other. I was still glad to be there, it is more Awe inspiring to me than the over the top excitement we felt at being in love that 1st New Year.

I won't tell you if he tried anything,  I Mean It! :)



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