It's just there.
I don't know why. Bubbling up while I vacuum. Snuggling into my blanket while I relax. Swelling to a crescendo when I walk across a room. It can't be stopped.
There is no exact reason for it. When you look at the big picture there would seem to be every reason for it to not be present at all. True, though there have been the usual share of stresses, lately things have not been a train wreck for me personally. I imagine that helps. All the petty worries that chip away slowly are there as usual. All the huge worries than can overwhelm are present as always and conspire to make us lose hope. But the joy overtakes them like a tidal wave drowning them in delicious tingles of content and ripples of laughter.
I have habitually distrusted joy, always waiting for the event that crushes it. Felt guilty with joy. Why should I have joy when there is such a lack of it for others? Felt foolish for joy. This world is a serious place with serious problems. Do I not see the trouble everywhere starting from right next door and spreading across the world? Yes I do.
Yet I feel Joy. Unbounded all consuming Joy.
maybe events might crush it.
I try to find ways to bring it to others.
I am aware and do what I can and what I think best.
So I have decided,
To Have My Joy and Be Joyful Too.
I Wish You Joy!
Will you stick it in a drawer and wait for a better time to use it?
Don't do that.
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